Life has a way of draining the life out of us if we are not careful. The past several months have been anything but pleasant. Everything that could go wrong has, at least twice. Bills are piling up. Health has taken a nasty turn. Spiritual health is hanging in the balance. Emotions are all over the place. Mental state is touch and go most days. Life sucks monkey balls right now. The sad reality is I have caused a lot of what I’m experiencing at the moment. It all boils down to choices. And believe me when I say I’ve made some catastrophic decisions as of late. Charge it to the fact that I have a kind and caring heart. Watching others suffer is not something I can witness and do nothing to help. Unfortunately, it has been at the detriment of my own well-being. But not anymore. Self-care is now my top priority.

In times past, I used to allow others to guilt trip me into helping when I had no desire to. Because of it I’ve overextended myself more times than I care to admit. There is a song by Bill Coday “find a fool(bump his head)” I have been that fool for a long season. A magnate for people trying to get over at someone else’s expense. Call it selfish ambition. Trying to save the world nearly destroyed me. Yes, I had struggles that I had to figure out all by my lonesome. I guess you can say that’s why I made it my business to help others through their rough seasons. I dare not allow someone else to struggle alone like I did. That being said, have I inserted myself into the place of God? Have I taken on God’s responsibility? Its hard trying to figure out when to help and or mind my business. Only God knows. Maybe He’ll enlighten me one day.